look back to see the footsteps imprint,
guess i'm missing those time,
just you and me,
but i won't let myself crumble under the weight again.

cause i don't want to feel that weak again,
it's something i'd gain from losing you,
it's the strength within me,
the freedom inside of me.

it may not be as good as the old times,
but now i'm much more reassured,
that i don't need you loving me,
cause all i'd ever need was the reassurance.

so go on pour out your poison on me,
cause i won't let it poison me,
you chose, you choose,
peotry or prose.

you linger in the air,
but i no longer realise it's still there,
yes there's an ache in my heart,
but guess i've forgotten how it feels to get an ache.

haha, it feels good to be wild and free again,
though sometimes playing solitare alone,
can be depressing,
but it's much more better than having me stressing,

over trivial matters i should'nt be even bothered about,
and now i'm wondering why,
i'd even wrote this stuff.
ouh foolishness spare me this time round.


well I don't know i guess i'm in the mood to just look back at my past today.

Isn't it ironic how the one you love changes to the one you really hate?
Isn't it ironic how you can take a year to get something and lose it all in a day?
well isn't it ironic that it only takes a fishball to kill?

Isn't it ironic when two people like each other but they'd never know what the other one is feeling?
Isn't it ironic that we fight amongst the same species?
well isn't it ironic you could miss someone when they're just right beside you?

isn't it ironic?
isn't it ironic?

haiz..
haha what's wrong with me today?
i have no idea.
guess am just feeling a little down.
it's a friday and the weekends are ahead but
i'm just feeling really gloomy today.

Maybe it's cause i'd had a nightmare last night.
it was about SGT Derek.
in my dream it was like he seemed very queit and morseful.
it seemed as though he wanted to tell me something,
i wanted to talk to him then suddenly he just walked away
and the next thing i knew i was walking down a flight of steps when,
i saw him lying still in a black coffin,
there were candles everywhere and when i looked in,
i saw SGT Derek's face and i started crying like hell,
when i woke up i was really crying.
OMG!
maybe it's just that i'm gonna miss him truckloads after he has ORD-ed.
ORD LO!! :D

man i really hate this feeling.
luckily i actually have facebook to accompany me,
and Alanis Morissette's sweet voice..
when will i ever be able to sing like her..
never maybe(:

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